Fighting Parenting Anxiety and Learning to Back Off and Observe

When I was younger, I always wanted a twin sister. I didn't actually realize this was an impossibility until I was maybe 7 or 8. And even then, this realization didn't stop me from desiring it so, so badly. I was always a nervous, anxious kid. I didn't have anxiety in the way that it… Continue reading Fighting Parenting Anxiety and Learning to Back Off and Observe


One Year

March 10, 2016 Tonight is a bittersweet one. I sit here with tears in my eyes, on the eve of my fraternal twins' first birthday, unable to believe that we have made it through this challenging, exhausting, beautiful, amazing year. One year ago tonight, I was terrified. Excited, yes, but also tremendously terrified. I had… Continue reading One Year

The Twin Parenting Advice I Couldn’t Follow

When my twins, now 11 months, first arrived, I was hell-bent on keeping them on the same schedule. After all, that was the sage advice everyone with multiples gave me: one up, both up; one down, both down. And so I tried. Believe me when I tell you how very hard I tried. I wanted… Continue reading The Twin Parenting Advice I Couldn’t Follow


Dear First Born

Dear First Born, You amaze me. I meticulously tried to prepare you for the arrival of your twin sisters, now 11 months. I bought all the books. I brought you to ultrasound appointments so you could see the babies swimming around in Mommy‚Äôs belly. We took a Big Sibling class where you learned how to… Continue reading Dear First Born


Seeking Light in the Dark

I always assumed depression was a condition one endured, then moved on from. With time, perhaps medicine, therapy, a good support network, I figured it was somewhat linear: you suffer, then recover. And if the condition is chronic, perhaps the suffering will re-emerge at another point in life, but the trajectory will be the same.… Continue reading Seeking Light in the Dark